Surprise, surprise... I had my appraisal session with my supervisor yesterday. I am probably the first one in the organisation doing it. She said we should be starting a.s.a.p. as instructed by HR. I was given too short of a notice to prepare for it.

After using the official forms to input my work done between Apr 05 to Mar 06, I came to realised I shouldn't even wait a minute longer to throw in the letter. My list of work done used to be 3-4 pages long minimum and yesterday's it was only a page long!

Yeah yeah, she said something about putting me up for promotion this year blah blah blah but when she gazed at my forms she told me it will be a difficult thing to attempt. Why am I not surprised? My list got shorter is not my fault. Its a duty of the supervisors to give work to their subordinate, agree? Obviously she has decided for a long time not to use me and hire temp staff instead! How demoralising can that be to me! I'm just waiting for the right door to open up before I could slam this current one that I have goodbye!

She was also suggesting ideas like job rotation (i.e, transfer) in another department and I told her in her face a big fat NO. Its not that I'm happy in my current place but I just would not want her to feel victorious. Selfish? Can you blame me? She even said if I were under contract I wouldn't have made it another year. Don't blame fate... you just wished I was under contract.

See... I'm not even scared that she might be reading this right now. I don't give a wet f*ck anymore. I'm sure she'll be just as excited to see that letter. Am I gonna leave this wretched job graciously? MAKE ME!!

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